Haunted

Im having those memories again. The ones I tried to forget. The ones we shared a long time ago. Obviously, they still haunt me.

I wish that something would just happen. I need to know if I am wasting my time or if I made the right choice. Out of the goodness of my heart, I would respond. I would say, "come back... I miss you and I want to be friends again", or I would say, "I was hurt, I still am, please don't contact me." Something. Anything. The 'not knowing' part of this whole situation is a slow poison. Its keeping me from living my life in the present. Instead I am engulfed by those memories.


Even though I am not sure what I would say or do, I would at least like to have a clue.

This is me, sending out my feelings and energy, just so that maybe I can finally know.